It's hard to post...

I sat here yesterday wondering what to say...

I sit here again wondering what to say....

I realize why I can't think of what to say,

because it's depressing.

Who wants to tell depressing news?

I want to tell you good news. I want to give hope.

I want hope for my son.

I want him to hear after his surgery in two weeks.

Here is my hope for this week:

 He's in Utah, with his friends.

He loved his time there for the short 3 months he lived there.

 He loves his friends. I hope he has a great week!

We had a friend come visit yesterday:

Jessica is the daughter of my friend from my youth.

She came to visit for the day and we went to Marymere falls and Lake Cresent.



Counting down....

 When Chad was on his mission in Michigan and getting

ready to come home, he said

 "Mom don't count down the days, it's too hard for me".

I said I am not a counter! I can't stand waiting!

 I like to be busy times goes by faster.

Well.... I am trying NOT to count how many days till Chad has brain

surgery. It's too hard to think about what comes after the surgery.

Chad is doing ok, he has moments that he can't hear anything at all.

Those are hard for him, they happen at least once a week.

Daily he says we need to speak up because he can't hear

what we are saying. He has ringing in his ear with the small tumor

daily. Sometimes it keeps him awake at night.

The idea that post surgery he could be deaf is something that

he is realizing is a possibility.

I am so grateful for our sign language teacher. She is strict, funny and

pushes us hard. She said as much at class tonight.

She said we were doing great, that we had a great family and

that she was pushing us hard.

I am so grateful to my other children, friends family,

and my husbands staff all for being so supportive.

We couldn't get through this without them.

 I am also so grateful that winter qtr is over!